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Healing takes patience, the stitches need time to dry, then scab, then stop hurting. The scars remain like silver linings around a dark moment: You survived. You. Survived.
Walking away is easier in the moment, anger and fear propel you forward, your feet thinking on their own. Run.
But now, barefoot in the garden with memories of his hand rushing for her face she flinches when a butterfly flits over a shoulder.
Curling her toes into the wet grass she grounds her feet. Growth can be any way. She grows taller underground.
Five days before she passed away she texted from her sickbed an ocean away, that she was tired of hospital sounds. So, I stood in the middle of the garden and recorded the morning sounds: My beagle’s sniffles, chirping of birds, the distant honk of traffic, a hawker’s call from the adjacent street — mundane things.
I sent her the 37 seconds of life.
last call of an unknown bird gathering dusk